love or contentment?

bits and pieces
i am hearing from other ppl’s experiences
i guess thats why i love to talk to ppl older or much older than me
their life experiences are invaluable
even if i do not totally agree with their versions of lessons learnt
their experiences are really eye openers sometimes

i have to say work life really widens my horizon
not only in terms of work
in terms of social life too
ppl are not as innocent and naive as they seem to be
and older guys, they talk abt everyth openly

there are many different sides of me
i guess i chose which side to open to who
i guess each of my colleague knows a different me
and their versions can be quite far apart
but nonetheless they are all me
and some who thought that they know me well
i am actually quite far from what they thought
still back to the same point
maybe they just know a different side of me

i have colleagues who think that i am such a party animal
or an alcoholic
but i guess i dun actually drink enough to be an alcoholic
i haven even been to butter factory or the alr closed down m.o.s. before
i dunno why i always give ppl this impression

i have colleague who thinks that i am a flirt and a bi-sexual
just because i am friendly to everyone, guys and girls
but i think thats cos i am a cheerleader =)

i have colleagues who think that i am over conservative
and trying to open my minds to accept unconventional concepts
and help open my eyes to see what the world actually is
true there are lots of things that i might not know
but i am actually quite receptive to new things
the set of conservative rules only apply to myself
partly cos i am too stubborn

all of the above sounds quite different eh?
sometimes i am extremely careful not wanting to let others know me
especially people i am working with
but sometimes somehow i let my guard down and exposed myself
i guess these are the two different sides of me as well
reserved and open

i realized the longer i have been around
the more sides of mine are exposed to myself
i guess there is maybe just one side of ourselves
that is we have different interactions with different ppl
thats how we react naturally
not trying to hide any side on purpose
just the way of getting along with each individual is different

haha been quite stressed recently
i just dunno where to start from
for everything
a very heavy burden on my shoulders
just hope everything gonna be okay haha
doing things that are beyond my limits
yeah cant deny its a good learning experience
so just take it and try to do my best la
i have so many people around me willing to help me
things will go fine have faith!