lindychua wrote:
ireneyksoh@yahoo.com.sg wrote:
One Word: Terrible
2011 could perhaps been the worst year ever for me. its the year where my mum's health starts to deteriorate and she had to be constantly in and out of hospital. My most painful date in 2011 would be 28th Apr 20:28. it is the very fateful day and time that my mum was pronounced passed on. it is that day that i lost my most beloved mum, my soulmate, my shopping kakis, my best friend, my pillar of support . in other words, she is my everything.
am still moaning over my lost now. trying very hard to pick myself up. but the fact that she is no longer around still haunts me. and i tend to cry everytime i saw kids with their mum. never had i feel more lost than now. i often cry in my sleep.
i feel very unbalanced. why god let some ungrateful brat had their mum despite them not treasuring them, but took my most beloved one away from me. even writing this bring tears back to my eyes. the pain is really too much for me to bear. if growing up mean i have to bear all this pain, i rather remain a child for life.
Oh dear, dont feel pessimistic. I believe 2012 will be a better year for you.
Well, your mum wont want to see you sad, so do be strong ! She will be up there guiding you and protecting you

tks, sis! i'm trying very hard, but there are times when i suddenly feel very emo out of the sudden. and i tend to break out in tears for no reason. but lucky me is i've got my colleagues there for me.
i try to keep myself busy with work, so that i won't think wild. but once night comes, the loneliness will still come back. i don't mind losing everything just to have my mum back. that is how i feel. but it hurts me to see her in pain too. if only i can suffer on her behalf.