I swore I must have been in a longest, weary dream! 2016 is finally over and I got to admit that although I feel pained that I've lost some time, I'm kind of looking forward to 2017. May the bad be gone and let us welcome the good!
To be honest, my previous job had left me beaten, drawn and I lost almost all my confidence. I wish I can pour it all here and have listening ears, but face the fact, sometimes social media sharing gets us into trouble. Some people are always ready for war even when articles written are general. Anyway, because I was indirectly destroyed from inside out, coupled with some happenings at home and in the previous relationship - one that had me thinking it's all of me and my future. Oh man, I was feeling so down and extremely lousy, but I guess I did well in being as happy as I can. Or rather, I was faking it. I constantly wear a happy mask because I didn't want people to worry about me. And maybe, maybe I didn't want to face the fact that my life is not going the way I wanted it to.
The main reason I look forward to stepping into year 2017, is really just an excuse to run away from 2016. Is there any time when you feel so tired and you wanted to just dump everything and take off from wherever you are? 2016 is one of such a year from me. I started off thinking I was soaring, but I broke a wing and fell badly. Everything went down the drain all at the same time. I was exhausted and deprived of sleep and peacefulness. Sorry if I seem to be whining! If any one of you are going through this, all I wanna say is, I totally feel how you feel!
In 2017, there will only be 2 endings – good or bad. It all boils down to how we create our own end result and how we perceive it. The last few months, I had a good thinkover and feel that I do need to work harder at being contented. Not the slack and do nothing kind of content, but more like being appreciative of every small little thing that God has given me and to be positive and feel and see more good in things and people. I refuse to be materialistic and I refuse to let unworthy people get me down anymore. I refused to do only what people think is the successful job. I should do what I am good at or what I enjoy. Although it is also true that serving a good boss is far better than having a good job. But then, finding a good boss isn't easy too? Meanwhile, I already have some little plans for 2017. Achieving it is another set of thing altogether so do allow me to keep you in suspense and I hope I will have good news to announce!