OUR SOCIETY
by Yirong
2010. Can’t believe we are already into the New Year. Time really flies after I started working, especially fast when I am busy with my work at the same time still trying to update my blog as regularly as possible.
2009 was the year that made me matured. I officially became an adult, long after I turned 21; because finally, I stopped relying on my parents financially and started spending ONLY my very own hard-earned money. There were no longer teachers, professors or teammates there to guide me along the way and I had to learn to find my own way. That was when I started realizing that in life, you really choose how you want to live, not others.
I was such an emotional girl who was always trying to appear bubbly and cheerful in front of others. However sadly, the bubbles and cheers didn’t last longer than the first impression. As you get closer to me, you might soon be feeling drained by my waves of extreme emotions. No, I wasn’t depressed. It was just that my moods fluctuated so much that I could have been to heaven and hell within split seconds, majority of the time due to actions of people around me. I was easily amused by the slightest things such as a simple catch up sms from an old friend, but any slight negative remarks or comment could also drowned me endlessly.
Graduating from university and entering the work force was a major milestone in my life. A very strong voice within me told me that I needed to be truly happy and to stop putting up a strong front and fake smiles. For the past 20+ years of my life I did try to change, so many times but failed. This time, I was really enlightened. I don’t know what brought me to really believe this that, ’it is all in the mind’, and it is very true, you know? You choose how you want to live, and you live for yourself!
I used to get depressed over anonymous tags criticising my blog, even though they had only came by once or twice in a year. Those rare visits by them were enough to haunt me. But now, they TOTALLY have no effect on me at all. After I started blogging with MyFatPocket, my reader base has definitely changed significantly. From mostly friends, to now, I am sure a lot more strangers from the mass public are reading it. As my readership increases, there bound to have more people hating me and there is no way I can please everyone. However, hey, let’s look on the bright side! These people who disliked me still come back to my blog, doesn’t it just mean that my blog is still attractive to them to a certain extent? Moreover, those were just passer-bys who didn’t even leave their names behind, i don’t even need to bother about how they think, what matters most are my loved ones who are always there for me, the people we know that we could always fall back on.
That leads me to another point. We only live once, and I want to live it to the fullest, not for anyone else, but for myself and the people that are close to my heart. And the best thing is that I am able to choose if I want to live happily or just want to be another sad story. That’s right, you choose to be happy. Happiness is a choice that requires effort, I agreed with both hands up. Happiness doesn’t just come to you, you know? If you continue dwelling in your own sad story, nobody can help you. For me, I am able to see the positive side of anything that happened and I considered myself really lucky.
I believe that as long as you have faith, luck will always come your way. Speaking from experience, I have retrieved lost items that I left behind on the cab, not once, but twice – a laptop and a camera respectively. I didn’t care how everyone else was telling me to give up. I didn’t care how everyone was trying to convince me that I was just unlucky and I should just forget it and not be hopeful anymore. I kept making calls time and again. And in the end, I retrieved my items back! I don’t know if that was a good example. But at least in those cases, I didn’t get depressed and emotional just because I lost the items that are priceless to me. Instead, I tried all means to find them back. At the end, even if I didn’t manage to get them back, at least I know that I have tried my best and have no regrets.
I am not an experienced writer, even though I have been blogging for almost 3 years. I do not know how to decorate my words, I just hope that opening up I am able to help those who are stuck in similar situations as the old me.
I took a long while to free myself and I really wish that the experiences that I have shared here will help you in getting enlightenment sooner than I did.
So thank you 2009. And welcome, February 2010.
Happy Lunar New You, all!
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