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My Good, My Bad but Never Ugly 2012

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If ever one day, you look into the mirror and do not recognize the person staring back at you, change.

This is my very first intimate and personal article that I have written ever. And it all started from a year of Murphy's Law. 2011 was probably one of the toughest years of my life. I lost the vital thing any human being could never lose... myself.

I called off an engagement that has been soaked in alcoholic drunkenness. I lost my most beloved godmother. I lost my penthouse condo dream. All these before hitting my big 30.

And then one day when I looked in the mirror, I did not recognize the person staring back at me. I was convinced that the best revenge I could do was self-love. 

So preparing for 2012, I decide to find the love that I lost for myself and turn my life around - physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Sure, it took more than 365 days to chin up and sort things out. Sure, there were nights of silent sobbing. Sure, there was excessive drinking. But when I managed to get myself sorted out, I go to bed smiling.

The Physical Therapy - Enhancement of External Beauty

Clear & Brilliant Laser by Dr Joyce Lim
I have to thoroughly cleanse my face before the application of numbing cream.
Clear & Brilliant Laser by Dr Joyce Lim
Twas given a tube to blow cold air to my face so the tingling sensation will be bare minimal.
Clear & Brilliant Laser by Dr Joyce Lim
I am such a happy gal knowing that my skin will be improved in less than 4 hours!
Clear & Brilliant Laser by Dr Joyce Lim
Doctor Joyce Lim constantly asked if I was in pain and if I was comfortable. Much love from the doctor!
Clear & Brilliant Laser by Dr Joyce Lim
Clear & Brilliant laser machine uses Intelligent Optical Tracking System (IOTS™) that senses skin contact with the treatment tip rollers, and the motion of the tip relative to the skin surface.


Growing up, I was never good to my skin and my skin was never kind to me. I had itchy fingers and will pick on the hormonal breakouts and now in my adult life, I am left with scars of regret, literally!

I opted for Clear + Brilliant Laser from Solta Group before I tackle my deep acne scars issue. Clear + Brilliant is great for general skin resurfacing and can be safely used on all skin types. The laser uses Intelligent Optical Tracking System (IOTS™) that senses skin contact with the treatment tip rollers, and the motion of the tip relative to the skin surface. 

I was on the maximum laser level and the level of pain was... actually, there was no pain at all. Throughout the 20 minutes procedure, I was given a tube that blew cold air to my face so the tingling sensation of the laser was minimal. Doctor Joyce Lim was very gentle and constantly asked if I was in pain.

From the video, you can see that within minutes there is a clear difference in my skin. Watch the video and compare the right and left side of my face. The redness subsided within 4 hours and the depression of my scars were noticeably balanced. 

I am still on my second session though but the difference is already obvious.

Wish me luck :)

The Physical Therapy - Religious Skincare Regime

L'Oreal Youth Code Pre-Essence Serum
L'oreal White Perfect Transparent Rosy Whitening Radiance
L'Oreal Revitalift Eye Cream
Lashem Eyelash Growth Serum
Bodyshop Strawberry Born LIppy Lipbalm
Bodyshop Strawberry Body Butter

I used to neglect beauty regime because I was young and took the importance of good skin for granted. But now that I am almost 30 years old, a good canvas is not only a privilege, it is a necessity. Thanks to our beauty experts, Jackie Sitoh and Aileen Lee from B2B, who constantly remind me that good skin is necessary to look youthful and feel confident.

With their recommendations, I am now very religious with my beauty regime. Together with my laser and great skincare products, I am on the path to having radiant and smooth complexion.

I am loving the compliments so far from friends and family.

The Emotional Therapy - My Network of Support

The Bestfriend who Taught me to Love
My bestfriend who made me understand the meaning of quality of life. She always lets me cry or laugh the way I want. The best thing about her is that she NEVER judges me and is always there for me at any time of the day.
The BFF who Taught me to Love Myself
The friend who kicks me back to reality and the very person who made me realise that to love others is to love myself first.
The Friend who Taught me to Forgive & Forget
Friendship of over half a decade, she taught me to forgive and forget. Someone I can dance like no one's watching and drink like no one's judging with. She taught me the value of trust.
The One who Taught me Strength & Courage
The way she smiles at simple happiness is contagious. Her strength and courage at being such a loving single parent to her adorable daughter made me realise that everything is possible.
The Person who Taught me Kindness & Empathy
Possibly one of the kindest persons I know, the way she cares for her friends is genuine and real. We may be poles apart in every sense but our love for each other is on the level.


The journey of loving myself has been working out very well for me so far. I am a happier person now - I smile and laugh with my whole heart. 

It is true that things happen for a reason. If not for the calamities of my life last year, I would not have found a more spiritual Bianca that celebrates life each and everyday.

All because I have learnt to love myself. All over again. Life is so beautiful now. No more worries or tears. No more broken hearts or promises.

Time will heal it all but loving yourself is the first step to recovery. Trust me.